The Truth of the Matter

I wonder about my relationship with God sometimes. How genuine is that relationship? I don't know that my prayer life would fit any standard. I don't kneel by my bedside twice a day with head bowed and hands clasped. My prayer life is more of an ongoing conversation with God. I speak to Him throughout my day as things come to mind and people cross my path. Is that normal?

But what I have been thinking about lately is what I DON'T pray about. Its easy enough to lift up requests about small issues and the day in and day out things. The really big things . . . well I hesitate to whisper those to God. Why is that? Why don't I commit to pray constantly for the friend with the addiction problem or the family member with the marriage problem? Those are huge ongoing issues that need committed, consistent prayer. After carefully examining this, I think I have figured out why I don't do it. I am afraid that God will not answer my request in the fashion and timing that I desire And then where will I be? I think my heart is not too far from the father in Mark 9:24 who said, "I do believe; help my unbelief."